Here's another poem I wrote.

She got lost in her mind.

Yesterday,

I thought about the way

she smiles 

all the time. 

The way she smiles at me

and laughs

in that cloud of happiness

I always have seen she's in.

Today, 

I started thinking about the way

 she cries when she

is all alone.

The way she breaks down

and get's drown 

in the ocean of tears 

she, all alone, has made.

Tomorrow,

I'll probably be thinking

about the way

she faked all that smiles.

The way she didn't ever look sad

but got lost

into the mess

that her mind has created.

(V.G)

Suicide prevention organizations.

Something I really want to do when I grow up is to help people. I think you all have noticed my interest in mental health. I just think people aren't too concerned of how someone can be killing theirselves on their mind, and I think people should know about it!

That's why I want to be a volunteer in any suicide prevention organization. I know a bit about some who help people when they are having a bad time. An example is Kristin Brooks Hope Center, which focus is suicide prevention, awareness and education. 

They have multiple programs to help people feel better, bring hope to their lives and stop thinking of commiting suicide. I'm gonna tell you something, if you are thinking of killing yourself, they for sure CAN HELP YOU, the staff and volunteers are trained for that! I hope I will be able to help them save lives when I am older, and please remember you are important, you are loved, and suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

A poem I wrote.

So hi! I wrote a poem, and I wanted to share it with you, I hope you like it! I'm not a writer though:(, but I tried my best so I'm almost happy, love you all! Leave a comment if you can<3.

The sadness of monsters.

I guess I might be dying

because I'm writing.

I always write when I feel like dying

that's something that may be hard to understand

because i have never been dying

so I don't know how it feels.

But maybe I have been dying

but I just haven't notice it yet.

I was feeling sad 

because people aren't people anymore,

We're all sad.

We're all monsters trying to go through the day

without making someone feel sad.

But we often fail. 

And that just makes another soul sad.

And maybe we're just monsters hiding in the dark.

But now I wonder,
What is darkness?
Maybe we are
With all our harming
With all our screams
With all our bad intentions
So full of ourselves when we actually aren't that good.

We're just mosters hiding from ourselves
so that way we won't get hurt.
But maybe that's what hurts us.
At least that's the way I see it,
and that's exactly how it goes.
 We are afraid of what we've become
and that's what hurts us the most.



(V.G)

A book.

Books... It was really hard to choose what book should I talk about. But I decided to talk about an awesome book that you all should read, I love it. 

The fault in our stars by John Green is an awesome book. It is, sincerely, the best book I have ever read. It's a drama novel. I guess the plot is just really good, the book is narrated by a sixteen years old girl who was diagnosed with Stage 4 Thyroid Cancer when she was 13, her name is Hazel Grace Lancaster. Hazel Grace is forced by her parents to go to a support group, there she meets a boy, Augustus Waters, who lost his right leg to osteosarcosoma. They fall deeply in love and like you must be thinking this book is really tragical, but realistic. It's a book that I highly recommend, it's a sweet, phisolophical, funny and heartbreaking novel, but, like Augustus says in the book: "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt".

 

A movie.

I have to write about a movie. I think I'm just addicted to movies that break your heart. The movie I will talk about is really sad. But it's my favorite though.

Sala samobójców (Suicide room) is a polish dramatic film directed by Jan Komasa. The film is about a lost and really sensitive teenager named Dominik Santorski (Jakub Gierszal) who is the son of wealthy parents. Dominik goes through dares and humilliating events and his classmates accuse him of homosexuality and mock him on social networking sites. Dominik feels so humilliated so he decides to stop going to school and stops preparing for his final exams too. These problems overlap with his parents who aren't at home most of the time. Battling with depression, Dominik secludes himself in his room. While this happens, he meets a suicidal girl on the internet named Sylwia (Roma Gasiorowska) and they make an emotional and intellectual bond. Over time, Dominik loses contact with the real world, becoming more engrossed in a virtual world.

I think it's a pretty good movie, like, it's an awesome movie. Good plot, perfect acting, realistic. I highly recommend it, but it for sure will break your heart.

 It shows you that everything can change, that everyone can suffer, that sometimes people in the internet are better friends that those who you have at your side. It shows you that having a mental problem can kill as much as a physical problem can. I think that's something that people have to understand. Bullying, cutting, depression, suicide, and any other mental problem aren't something to joke about.

Some awesome bands.

I don't know what music do you like, but I do like bands, a lot.
I think it's hard to find a favorite band to talk about so I will mention those that I like the most. I really like these bands because the lyrics of every song are truly meaningful and their music can save those who are in pain. Also, you can relate to their lyrics and feel understood, and every member of these bands are awesome people.

Of Mice & Men, this band is conformed by Austin Carlile, Alan Ashby, Philip Manansala, Valentino Arteaga and Aaron Pauley, and it's a metalcore band. Some lyrics of their songs:

"All night, I dream of water that can wash the weight of the world from my shoulders."-Purified. 

"This is not what it is, only baby scars. I need your love like a boy needs his mother's side."-Second and sebring.

"Here in this world I'm awaked with mistakes but it's love that keeps fueling me, fueling me, to love you."-When you can't sleep at night.

Another band I like is Pierce The Veil, which is conformed by Victor Fuentes, Michael Fuentes, Jaime Preciado and Tony Perry. It's a post-hardcore band. Some lyrics of their songs:

"I kissed the scars on her skin, I still think you're beautiful and I don't ever want to lose my best friend."-A match into water.

"Oh what a waste of a perfectly good clean wrist, you were screaming 'til the police came, can we create something beautiful and destroy it?"-Disasterology.

"This is a wasteland, my only retreat, with heaven above you, there's hell over me."-Hell above.

"My love for you was bulletproof but you're the one who shot me."-Bulletproof love.

Also I like Sleeping With Sirens, it's conformed by Kellin Quinn, Gabe Barham, Jesse Lawson, Justin Hills and Jack Fowler. It's a punk-rock/post-hardcore band. Some lyrics of their songs:

"Father, father, tell me where have you been, it's been hell not having you here, i've been missing you so bad and you don't seem to care. When I go to sleep at night, you're not anywhere, when I go to sleep at night, do you care?"-A trophy father's trophy son.

"I saw you move from across the room, I knew who you were. You act like you're afraid of who you are, I'm afraid for you. Try, trust and believe in me. I can show you that there' s so much more. There's still hope for you, let me show you I can save you."-In case of emergency, dial 411.

"Your mind has gotten the best of you, you've done enough and you're enough, let's fall asleep tonight, i'll hold you close and show you you're not broken. [...] Don't give up because you're losing. Hold on."-You kill me (In a good way).

Another band I listen to is Nevershoutnever, it's conformed by Christofer Drew, Taylor Macfee and Hayden Kaiser. It's a indie rock band. Some lyrics of their songs:

 "You tell me that you love me, then you go and leave me, why you do this to me?, babe, i'm lovesick. I just can't eat, just can't sleep, can't do much of anything at all, 'cause i'm sick and in love with you, dear."-Lovesick.

"I'm sick of imagery, intead of artistry, I'm sick of apathy, instead of harmony, I'm sick of poets working part-time jobs while pissy people pick and choose the stars."-Sellout.

"I'm just a robot, I have no fears, I lack of emotion and I shed no tears. I'm just a coma, a deadly sleep, my heart is breaking but I just can't weep."-Robot. 

"I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl, she's got my heart tied in a knot and my stomach in a whirlbut even worse I can't stop calling her, she's all I want and more, what's not to adore?"-Trouble.

 The last band I'll put on here is La Dispute, it's conformed by Jordan Dreyer, Adam Vass, Brad Vander Lugt, Chad Sterenberg and Kevin Whittemore. It's a post-hardcore band too. Some lyrics of their songs:

"I'm getting worse and worse, I had a reason for the writing but trying to exorcise my demons didn't work. [...] I'm increasingly aware I've been painting things in gray, I'm increasingly alarmed by the pain. I'm increasingly alive to every cloud up in the sky, I'm incrasingly afraid it's gonna rain."-A poem.

" 'Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself? Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself? Can I ever be forgiven 'cause I killed that kid? It was an accident, I swear it wasn't meant for him! And if it turned on me, if I even it out, can I still get in or will they send me to hell? Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?' "-King park.

"I think I saw you in my sleep, darling, I think I saw you in my dreams, you were stitching up the seams on every broken promise that your body couldn't keep."-Such small hands.

 I hope you liked my post and the bands of the above<3.